6 m0nths in

6 months in to a new organisation
1 month in to a new role
5 years in to a marriage
3 years into family life

30 minutes into further frustration

believe in yourself and there is no limit to what you can accomplish. fkcu to be 100% honest i find it simpler to believe in castles in the sky than myself

i have discovered what i have always known - i am my own worst enemy
i am analytical - critical - talk too much and inevitably nigh on impossible to work or live with
that of course is through my eyes which may in fact, when reflecting on myself, suffer the debilitating disease of xray vision. i see not only the actions but the intent.

i wonder how it is there are people who do, and are, themselves without a second thought
i wonder how it is some people have their worst thoughts filtered till digestible
i wonder if some of us are condemned for eternity to self denial and apology